Elatia is 8 weeks preggers now. On her FaceBook status she has a birth watch chart. Today it says that Elatia's embryo has knees! Knees are good! They are good for walking, running, crawling n stuff. Can't wait to see what's growing next week. It seems to me that if an embryo has knees, it would be a baby then, right?
When Elatia told me she was pregnant, I was in such a state of shock, I totally forgot what I had for her on this momentous day, but she didn't! I couldn't believe she remembered, it made me feel good, not only because she remembered, but because she really wanted it.
Not long after she told me the news of her pregnancy, she asked for it. On Dec 22, 1980 I was 9 weeks pregnant and started a journal to my un-born child, Elatia. I was living in IL and was quite lonely. My family was in FL. Elatia's father worked 2 jobs and was gone from 7am to 1am, so I decided to start writing to the baby about what I was going through to help with the loneliness. I use to read the journal to her as a bed time story when she was really young. She's been reading it and is finding it interesting. Like every time her father would try to feel her move, she would stop! hahahahaha!
She works a lot & now I work too, gotta have my Grammy shoppin money, so I look forward to hearing more about my journal to her and what she thinks about it. She is writing to her baby too. Her and JR kept a journal during their entire European vacation. What a great idea! Journals are like family history books that can be handed down generation to generation. What a wonderful gift!
It's All Good in the Grammy-hood!
Monday, July 26, 2010
Thursday, July 22, 2010
THE LIMA BEAN
That's the size of my grand baby, according to the Dr anyway. We went for the very first OB visit and scan today. I won't discuss the disaster that is our health care system that is causing my daughter a lot of grief & costing her $731 just for the 1st visit NOT including her lab work! That's an additional $300 to $400!!! Instead I will talk about being able to get a sneak peak at my grandchild.
Elatia is, as I believe I mentioned before somewhere if not here, 7.3 weeks along, not as far along as the clinic thought. The due date now is March 7, 2011. We got to see the baby's heart beat, which was so exciting! Surprisingly though I did not cry, none of us did. Maybe because what we were looking at did not look human yet. Now when I looked at the picture again at home and had time to really look at it, I could see the baby and that actually did make me tear up.
At one point the Dr. opened his eyes really big, like a surprised look, that was a little startling, but I guess I was the only one who noticed him doing that. I didn't want to scare Elatia, so I didn't say anything. After all, if he did see something out of the ordinary, he'd say something, right?
It's amazing that something that small and looks like that turns into a beautiful human baby. You can't help but be in awe of it all.
It's All Good in the Grammy-hood!
Elatia is, as I believe I mentioned before somewhere if not here, 7.3 weeks along, not as far along as the clinic thought. The due date now is March 7, 2011. We got to see the baby's heart beat, which was so exciting! Surprisingly though I did not cry, none of us did. Maybe because what we were looking at did not look human yet. Now when I looked at the picture again at home and had time to really look at it, I could see the baby and that actually did make me tear up.
At one point the Dr. opened his eyes really big, like a surprised look, that was a little startling, but I guess I was the only one who noticed him doing that. I didn't want to scare Elatia, so I didn't say anything. After all, if he did see something out of the ordinary, he'd say something, right?
It's amazing that something that small and looks like that turns into a beautiful human baby. You can't help but be in awe of it all.
It's All Good in the Grammy-hood!
FAST AND FURIOUS
That is how the signs from Andrew about this grand baybay have been coming in! Fast and furious! Of course I can't mention all the signs, it's a boundary issue thang. I'm keeping track so I can post them later when it's not an issue anymore.
Last night while home alone, I decided to turn on the music station as I was cleaning and putzing around the house while Martin was playing at the Irish Rover. The song, "Haven't Met You Yet" by Michael Buble came on. I thought, "There is that song again." Every time Martin and I would be in the car, that song ALWAYS came on, every time! We would comment, "hmmmmm what do you suppose that means? What's the message for us" Well, it dawned on me last night when it came on. It's our song for our grandchild. I have a song for each of my kids. For Elatia it's David Bowie's "China Doll." That's just what she looked like when she was born. And for Andrew it's Aerosmith's "You're My Angel." You don't choose the song, the song chooses you.
I googled the lyrics and it brought tears to my eyes, ok I cried like a baby because I felt Andrew's energy around me, it was such a cool feeling the connection with him. He was sending us that song to let us know that we really did have a grand baby coming in. Here are the lyrics...
Haven't Met You Yet
I'm not surprised, not everything lasts
I've broken my heart so many times, I stopped keeping track
Talk myself in, I talk myself out
I get all worked up, then I let myself down
I tried so very hard not to lose it
I came up with a million excuses
I thought, I thought of every possibility
And I know someday that it'll all turn out
You'll make me work, so we can work to work it out
And I promise you, kid, that I give so much more than I get
I just haven't met you yet
I might have to wait, I'll never give up
I guess it's half timing, and the other half's luck
Wherever you are, whenever it's right
You'll come out of nowhere and into my life
And I know that we can be so amazing
And, baby, your love is gonna change me
And now I can see every possibility
And somehow I know that it'll all turn out
You'll make me work, so we can work to work it out
And I promise you, kid, I give so much more than I get
I just haven't met you yet
They say all's fair
In love and war
But I won't need to fight it
We'll get it right and we'll be united
And I know that we can be so amazing
And being in your life is gonna change me
And now I can see every single possibility
And someday I know it'll all turn out
And I'll work to work it out
Promise you, kid, I'll give more than I get
Than I get, than I get, than I get
Oh, you know it'll all turn out
And you'll make me work so we can work to work it out
And I promise you kid to give so much more than I get
Yeah, I just haven't met you yet
I just haven't met you yet
Oh, promise you, kid
To give so much more than I get
I said love, love, love, love
Love, love, love, love
(I just haven't met you yet)
Love, love, love, love
Love, love
I just haven't met you yet
Last night while home alone, I decided to turn on the music station as I was cleaning and putzing around the house while Martin was playing at the Irish Rover. The song, "Haven't Met You Yet" by Michael Buble came on. I thought, "There is that song again." Every time Martin and I would be in the car, that song ALWAYS came on, every time! We would comment, "hmmmmm what do you suppose that means? What's the message for us" Well, it dawned on me last night when it came on. It's our song for our grandchild. I have a song for each of my kids. For Elatia it's David Bowie's "China Doll." That's just what she looked like when she was born. And for Andrew it's Aerosmith's "You're My Angel." You don't choose the song, the song chooses you.
I googled the lyrics and it brought tears to my eyes, ok I cried like a baby because I felt Andrew's energy around me, it was such a cool feeling the connection with him. He was sending us that song to let us know that we really did have a grand baby coming in. Here are the lyrics...
Haven't Met You Yet
I'm not surprised, not everything lasts
I've broken my heart so many times, I stopped keeping track
Talk myself in, I talk myself out
I get all worked up, then I let myself down
I tried so very hard not to lose it
I came up with a million excuses
I thought, I thought of every possibility
And I know someday that it'll all turn out
You'll make me work, so we can work to work it out
And I promise you, kid, that I give so much more than I get
I just haven't met you yet
I might have to wait, I'll never give up
I guess it's half timing, and the other half's luck
Wherever you are, whenever it's right
You'll come out of nowhere and into my life
And I know that we can be so amazing
And, baby, your love is gonna change me
And now I can see every possibility
And somehow I know that it'll all turn out
You'll make me work, so we can work to work it out
And I promise you, kid, I give so much more than I get
I just haven't met you yet
They say all's fair
In love and war
But I won't need to fight it
We'll get it right and we'll be united
And I know that we can be so amazing
And being in your life is gonna change me
And now I can see every single possibility
And someday I know it'll all turn out
And I'll work to work it out
Promise you, kid, I'll give more than I get
Than I get, than I get, than I get
Oh, you know it'll all turn out
And you'll make me work so we can work to work it out
And I promise you kid to give so much more than I get
Yeah, I just haven't met you yet
I just haven't met you yet
Oh, promise you, kid
To give so much more than I get
I said love, love, love, love
Love, love, love, love
(I just haven't met you yet)
Love, love, love, love
Love, love
I just haven't met you yet
PACIFY ME!
One thing Martin and I have been “holding the energy on,” (a very Light Worker thing to say) is becoming grandparents. We need something to help fill a part of this HUGE void, gap, black hole, left in our lives by Andrew. We also knew that becoming grandparents may be a long shot with the near death, medical, trauma Elatia experienced 7 months prior to Andrew’s leukemia diagnosis. Losing an ovary to a rare ovarian tumor, then having cysts come and go on the remaining ovary is not a recipe for a pregnancy diagnosis. Elatia felt like she couldn’t get pregnant and that’s what we were counting on! Without her interfering, i.e. using birth control, it made our job a little easier. Oh the tangle web we weave!
We were always kidding Elatia about our cruise, we kept telling her that we were going as 4, but better be coming back as 5. Her last night in Dublin with us, she was in bed and said she didn’t come down to say good night because she was tired and had cramps. My heart sank. I knew what that meant. I went down stairs to Martin and informed him that we were coming home as 4! *grunt & huff & foot stomp* As you now know that was not the case at all, instead we went on the cruise as 5. Life can be funny sometimes, ok A LOT!
When we landed back in Belfast from Barcelona after our cruise and before Dublin, Martin was having a chat with Andrew. He told Andrew that he wanted a definite sign that we really do have a grandchild coming in at some point at least. Martin heard, “Look down Daddy.” Martin looks down at the curb where we were getting our “people mover” i.e. van, and saw a baby pacifier with a green hue! OMG! No denying that answer! And a green one to boot? Green being Andrew’s color, it was a definite sign/answer from him. What a great son Andrew is!
Martin was going to tell Elatia about the pacifier and I told him NO WAY! We don’t need to be scaring her! She might freak out! She might start using birth control or something, and we just can’t take that chance! (hmmmm boundary issue here perhaps?) While she was open to the idea of having a baby, planning one was not on her agenda. We had to keep the pacifier a secret…until July 13th that is, that’s when we spilled our guts about everything we had been doing since May. Like starting the journal to our grandchild, buying a few baby outfits and telling a few close friends & family members what I was getting about an incoming grandchild.
Martin and I are so excited to have a grandchild coming in, we can wait to see who they are and how we can help them be who they came here to be! This pacifies me!
IT’S ALL REALLY GOOD!
We were always kidding Elatia about our cruise, we kept telling her that we were going as 4, but better be coming back as 5. Her last night in Dublin with us, she was in bed and said she didn’t come down to say good night because she was tired and had cramps. My heart sank. I knew what that meant. I went down stairs to Martin and informed him that we were coming home as 4! *grunt & huff & foot stomp* As you now know that was not the case at all, instead we went on the cruise as 5. Life can be funny sometimes, ok A LOT!
When we landed back in Belfast from Barcelona after our cruise and before Dublin, Martin was having a chat with Andrew. He told Andrew that he wanted a definite sign that we really do have a grandchild coming in at some point at least. Martin heard, “Look down Daddy.” Martin looks down at the curb where we were getting our “people mover” i.e. van, and saw a baby pacifier with a green hue! OMG! No denying that answer! And a green one to boot? Green being Andrew’s color, it was a definite sign/answer from him. What a great son Andrew is!
Martin was going to tell Elatia about the pacifier and I told him NO WAY! We don’t need to be scaring her! She might freak out! She might start using birth control or something, and we just can’t take that chance! (hmmmm boundary issue here perhaps?) While she was open to the idea of having a baby, planning one was not on her agenda. We had to keep the pacifier a secret…until July 13th that is, that’s when we spilled our guts about everything we had been doing since May. Like starting the journal to our grandchild, buying a few baby outfits and telling a few close friends & family members what I was getting about an incoming grandchild.
Martin and I are so excited to have a grandchild coming in, we can wait to see who they are and how we can help them be who they came here to be! This pacifies me!
IT’S ALL REALLY GOOD!
Boundary Hunter
Well, it really isn't me looking for the boundaries as much as it is my daughter. Being as excited as I am about this blessed event, my new title in life, I may over step bounds from time to time, but I'm trying to be careful about not doing that. I wanna be a great Grammy and mother for my daughter and grandchild! On the up side my daughter has no problem bitch slappin me back in line, ;-) & I'm cool with that. Already had it happen once, the day after we got the amazing news. Had to test the waters, ya know?
I am going to be careful about how much I reveal about the weeks coming up to getting the good news, & not of the Jehovah Witness kind either. And seriously, their news just isn't that great anyway! I got in trouble once already for sharing too much on facebook, so I'm not gonna do it here so I can promote the blog if I want. I'll keep the more intimate info in my personal journal to the baby.
Speaking of that journal, I started a journal to the baby on May 28th. I could feel this child's energy when my daughter told me one of the names she chose for a baby, if she was to ever have any kids, knowing it could be a long shot. That's the info I am NOT at liberty to share here. That bitch slap is still stinging a bit. The names came up in conversation because 2 of my Irish nieces are preggers and one of them, Laura, asked me that if she has a boy, would we mind if she named him Andrew, after my son. I told her we would love that. So when Elatia and I discussed names, I definitely felt this child's energy. I remember thinking, "OMG! I've got a grand_____ coming in soon!"
The day before Elatia came over I was on the treadmill and my mind wandered, like you do when on the road to no where, and I saw Andrew with a child, and I realized it was my grandchild. I saw them having a close relationship as the child grows up. This child will know their Uncle Andrew. They will be able to see and hear him. It brought tears to my eyes to see how my grandchild will be close to their uncle, my beloved Andrew.
Now getting the news that Elatia is 7.3 weeks pregnant, when did I start the journal? Right around the time she conceived! Man! Am I good or what?! When I felt this child I had to do something with these feelings or I would explode, so I started writing to the baby. I also started buying baby clothes and hid them from Elatia. Is it only boundary crossing when she knows I'm crossing it? It's like when a tree falls in the forest and no one is there to hear it kind of thing...right? Regardless,
IT'S ALL GOOD!
I am going to be careful about how much I reveal about the weeks coming up to getting the good news, & not of the Jehovah Witness kind either. And seriously, their news just isn't that great anyway! I got in trouble once already for sharing too much on facebook, so I'm not gonna do it here so I can promote the blog if I want. I'll keep the more intimate info in my personal journal to the baby.
Speaking of that journal, I started a journal to the baby on May 28th. I could feel this child's energy when my daughter told me one of the names she chose for a baby, if she was to ever have any kids, knowing it could be a long shot. That's the info I am NOT at liberty to share here. That bitch slap is still stinging a bit. The names came up in conversation because 2 of my Irish nieces are preggers and one of them, Laura, asked me that if she has a boy, would we mind if she named him Andrew, after my son. I told her we would love that. So when Elatia and I discussed names, I definitely felt this child's energy. I remember thinking, "OMG! I've got a grand_____ coming in soon!"
The day before Elatia came over I was on the treadmill and my mind wandered, like you do when on the road to no where, and I saw Andrew with a child, and I realized it was my grandchild. I saw them having a close relationship as the child grows up. This child will know their Uncle Andrew. They will be able to see and hear him. It brought tears to my eyes to see how my grandchild will be close to their uncle, my beloved Andrew.
Now getting the news that Elatia is 7.3 weeks pregnant, when did I start the journal? Right around the time she conceived! Man! Am I good or what?! When I felt this child I had to do something with these feelings or I would explode, so I started writing to the baby. I also started buying baby clothes and hid them from Elatia. Is it only boundary crossing when she knows I'm crossing it? It's like when a tree falls in the forest and no one is there to hear it kind of thing...right? Regardless,
IT'S ALL GOOD!
Saturday, July 17, 2010
Starting In The Grammy-hood
On July 13th, I got the best news a grieving mother could ever get! We had gotten home from our month long vacation in Europe early Tuesday morning, it was around midnight. Later that day, early afternoon, my daughter Elatia & her boyfriend J.R. had stopped by. They were out running errands and thought they would just stop by. We were at the grocery store when they called. I thought it odd but nice that they stopped by & waited for us in the driveway in the heat, even though my daughter has lizard blood & loves the heat, why wait? WOW! Maybe they missed us so much with all the time we had spent together sharing a cabin on the Mediterranean cruise we went on, they just had to see us again. It's been a week already. Yea that's it! They missed us a lot! Well, that's they way it went down in my pretty lil delusional head.
When we get inside, Elatia says she has a welcome home present for me. YAY! I love presents! It was some sort of electronic box, so I thought maybe it was an accessory for my phone or a cheap i-pod, (do they even make those cheap?) I open the box and start crying, and kept asking "Are you serious? Are you serious? No way, really?? Are you serious? Don't f**k w/me!" And she shook her head yes, then I really start crying! The box had baby bibs and bonnets! Granted they weren't for her but a friend, so I couldn't keep them, but the message was loud and clear! I'M GONNA BE A GRANDMOTHER! When the penny dropped for my husband Martin, he starts crying, J.R. is crying, group hug ensued, it was such an incredible moment that I thought I could never experience such joy again. I wanna relive that moment over & over again. After the last 3 1/2 years we've had, this was a much needed event. What a wonderful way to end a month long kick ass vacation!
Now for the cast of characters. There's me, the over excited Grammy that has to learn boundaries as said Grammy & try and not be so over zealous. Yea, good luck with that one! Then there's my husband Martin, a professional psychic medium, that my daughter seems to forget the fact what he does for a living & that I use to do readings as well until 3rd dimensional crap was not getting done right, so I decided to stay more grounded. SO what does that mean? It means I just know stuff, that's all I'm saying ;-) Then we have our teenage, Avatar, son Andrew, who is on the other side now for the past 2 1/2 + years. He made his transition 4 months after a leukemia diagnosis at 16yo in Oct 2007. Hence the grieving mother title. Because Martin is a medium, we have never lost contact with Andrew, he is still very much a part of our everyday life. Martin & Andrew work together doing readings on California Psychics. Yes, it sounds awfully cheesy working for a psychic line, but Martin is excellent at what he does & it pays the bills. Then we have the pregnant daughter Elatia, and the boyfriend J.R. who impregnated her. And of course I can't forget the whole reason for starting this blog, the reason for my new title in life, my new lease on life, "the bump," well, almost "the bump," it's still pretty early. These are the basic cast of characters. I'm sure we will have guests appearances from friends & an occasional family member, they all live in Ireland, but for now these are your basic cast of characters on my road to Grammy-hood
Stay tuned because there is much more to write about when this journey began for us on July 13.
When we get inside, Elatia says she has a welcome home present for me. YAY! I love presents! It was some sort of electronic box, so I thought maybe it was an accessory for my phone or a cheap i-pod, (do they even make those cheap?) I open the box and start crying, and kept asking "Are you serious? Are you serious? No way, really?? Are you serious? Don't f**k w/me!" And she shook her head yes, then I really start crying! The box had baby bibs and bonnets! Granted they weren't for her but a friend, so I couldn't keep them, but the message was loud and clear! I'M GONNA BE A GRANDMOTHER! When the penny dropped for my husband Martin, he starts crying, J.R. is crying, group hug ensued, it was such an incredible moment that I thought I could never experience such joy again. I wanna relive that moment over & over again. After the last 3 1/2 years we've had, this was a much needed event. What a wonderful way to end a month long kick ass vacation!
Now for the cast of characters. There's me, the over excited Grammy that has to learn boundaries as said Grammy & try and not be so over zealous. Yea, good luck with that one! Then there's my husband Martin, a professional psychic medium, that my daughter seems to forget the fact what he does for a living & that I use to do readings as well until 3rd dimensional crap was not getting done right, so I decided to stay more grounded. SO what does that mean? It means I just know stuff, that's all I'm saying ;-) Then we have our teenage, Avatar, son Andrew, who is on the other side now for the past 2 1/2 + years. He made his transition 4 months after a leukemia diagnosis at 16yo in Oct 2007. Hence the grieving mother title. Because Martin is a medium, we have never lost contact with Andrew, he is still very much a part of our everyday life. Martin & Andrew work together doing readings on California Psychics. Yes, it sounds awfully cheesy working for a psychic line, but Martin is excellent at what he does & it pays the bills. Then we have the pregnant daughter Elatia, and the boyfriend J.R. who impregnated her. And of course I can't forget the whole reason for starting this blog, the reason for my new title in life, my new lease on life, "the bump," well, almost "the bump," it's still pretty early. These are the basic cast of characters. I'm sure we will have guests appearances from friends & an occasional family member, they all live in Ireland, but for now these are your basic cast of characters on my road to Grammy-hood
Stay tuned because there is much more to write about when this journey began for us on July 13.
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